~please read~ Moana-lil talk

Hello guys,I made this journal because I really wanted to share my feelings at this moment.I just came from the cinema after watching the movie Moana. I just... feel a bunch of emotions and thoughts now. This really isn't about this movie,but about me.About Disney.About everything that happens in my head when seeing their new movies.
I'm not a fan of them because of their stories. I'm a fan of them because of the process behind the movies vs the final product.Knowing all the process behind the movies and seeing the final product is...exciting. The animations,character design and all that things are what makes me feel this things that I'll explain just in a minute.
Well,I don't know how to explain this but,when I go to see a movie,I focus more on the visual and musical (artistic) aspects of it,more than in the story. Why,you'll ask? Well,Since I started to take drawing seriously,every of their movies make me feel a lot of things inside:
-Just amazed by all the improvement animation movies have made in the past years. Yes,Super Amazed. This might not seem a big deal,but I take it very emotionally. Don't ask me why,I don't even know.
-They inspire me to art. That is the most amazing thing of their movies: if I have an art block,I just need to watch their movies to feel inspired. Even the trailer or a minute of movie would take me out of my art block.
-And here it comes the important part: I also have some negative emotions because of this:
I pressure myself too much because my dream is to work at Disney as a character designer. I know how difficult it is for me to achieve that,knowing the fact that I live in Spain,not in America,and that would make it even more difficult to get there.
I just see the amazing movie and want to be part of it,but it is so difficult to achieve my dream that I feel that I will never get to do it. I know what you will say,something like "don't worry;never give up and you'll get there" and in a part it is true,but I know the world is not that easy. I am only 13 years old and I shouldn't be thinking about this so seriously,but everything I do now is the base for my future ( now that I think of it,that last sentence looks like my school's slogan lol) and I just feel very pressured. I am talking to you guys because I can't talk like this to people my age,because they don't think about their future and the consecuences their acts have to it,and I feel like they are all too immature to have a serious talk with them.I am now realizing that I am ver different to people my age. It's not bad,I like it,but I can't talk seriously with them.And this is an art site, I'm sure there are people like me out there ^^
I have to try to keep my tears in when I feel this things,I just feel a bunch of different emotions and I have to let them go. 
Guys,sorry for the long journal. I just wanted you to read how I feel and how I am. 
Bye!